Wu Chun, My New Love

I really hope to keep this private, but I just have to write about it. Right now, I am extremely enamoured by one super cute and too good to be true person. This must be loooove. :) Yes. and you can guess that he is someone that is totally out of reach. Just like my other unrequited loves (*sigh), he is another celebrity from some far-fetched country that just swept me off my feet after some performance. And you guessed right, he is another character that i would gradually get over with after some time. Well, can't help it. Pretty boys are my type after all. BUt i'm guessing i won't get over him as fast as my other crushes. Normally my crush would last until i watched the next most interesting character. Just like Ming Dao, Jerry Yan (ulk, its a pain to say that), Hyun Bin, Lee Dong Wook, and the likes, I lost my feelings right after geting over their hit dramas, after watching another drama. Maybe because I only liked the 'characters' they played. Not really the actors themselves. But this time, I like the actor and the character both. They are so much the alike. They are both so caring and cute. I don't even see him as eye candy. First time I saw him, I thought, ugh.. not another talentless pretty boy. He's with a boyband you know. AND I don't even think he sings well. I sing much better. heheh.. That's a secret.

Well, I'm not very superficial. I think he's got character. Mmm... He writes his personal blog and tells his fans to always watch after themselves. Yeah, I know you could say that he is not really the one who writes those entries. I suspected that too. BUt one thing freaked me out. There was this entry about the death of his mom and how he was affected by it. If he is doing the blog (or lets someone write the entries for him just) just to get popularity, then I guesss he need not to write such sensitive and difficult topic. If I were a celebrity I wouldn't let anyone write something like that about the person I love the most and post it in the internet and pretend that it was me who wrote it. And if it were really someone else, they could have chosen someone who is good in English, right! His English is not really poor but when I read it, I always feel like editing it. I guess some habits never die.

My point is I think its true that he is the one who truly writes this blog. It has to be something true and sincere since many people are made happy by these. I also get happy reading these. I tried to read his initial entries bearing in mind that it was not really him writing. But that entry about his mom made me rethink things. Now, I'm an avid reader. Hehe. I was a column writer when I was with my high school newspaper and college journal but his writings have been read by a thousand times more persons than how many persons read my column. He can't even clear his guestbook with so many people leaving comments/feedbacks. I'm envious. Every writer would want to achieve that. Well, I guess you need not become a good writer in order to inspire others.

I am truly inspired. You could guess, he's also one of the reasons why i went back to blogging. That's why I now do my writings in pure English. Well, at least not Taglish (Tagalog-English). Hoping it will be read not only by my friends and my Filipino audience (If there is such). I hope this gets read by a lot people. Just want to inspire much more.

Aside from this, I just find reading his blog truly motivating. I got so fueled up in achieving my weight loss goals. FYI, I'm a 160 lbs 4'11, 23 year girl who has a job in IT. If you'd calculate my BMI (Body Mass Index), I'd be considered OBESE. And my lifestyle includes more that 10 hours sitting (more like thinking... - this job is actually very mentally draining) in front of the computer and no time for excersice. Yep, you could say my case is very serious and I am aiming for 90 lbs, in at least a year. If I continue to have this motivation, I'd be able to reach my goals on time. His blog is actually very informative. Imagine including a chart that says the nutrition facts of every vegetable and fruit he gets to lay his hands on. Haha. He's just something. And he always reminds his fans to drink plenty of water, eat more healthy food and exercise! How caring could he get. Harhar. And he also have this fetish for food. He can take picture of the food he is served, especially those that has a cute presntation. If I were that, I'll attack the food as soon as the plate is laid in front of me. While he, he still finds time to enjoy the presentation, the smell and I bet he munches his food so well to savor the taste and flavor. He doesn't only gobble it down just to satisfy his manly appetite. Talk about respect for food. I can imagine him being every chef's favorite. Oh, I'm swooning right now. Anyone? Please someone slap me off this dreamy state. Slap myself.

Bottom line, my heart flutters right now with just thoughts of him. Yeah, he is so good looking but I can see beyond that. I have my problems, but I can really forget it when I think of him. Ugh, enough. I can't take anymore of this. Posting now....

Spring time!
(Rebirth of the Green Mind)

Hi everyone!
I'm back! Yep.. you read it right. I'm back!... with a vengeance. Hehe. I'm totally excited about blogging again. I've been busy with a lot of things. Problems actually, which some I cannot divulge in this medium. But some I can still share. It's been hard, you would not imagine. You know when people say, 'You can't have it all.' Guess what?! It hit home! More like a Homerun! Just when you think your life is just so good that you would think it is becoming boring, fate will just drop the problems one by one. Yes, while you are not all ready for it. And before you know it your life has become a complete mess. You would get tired tending to one problem and discovering another one. And another one. Haha! So much for my dramatic starter. It's just the start of my blog, and I can't promise I would not be a tearjerker later on. I'm warning you now, you can quit reading this if you want. If you dare... heheh. I'm guessing you missed me a lot to pass up on this one. Bear with me, please.

Well, that's what has been going on during the time that I was not blogging. After battling some battles (what do you do with battles anyway?!), I have come out ALIVE and kicking. I survived! Hello again world!!! It's actually very liberating to say that. I can't count how many battles I've fought and suffered for the past months. Yet, its so surprising to know to know that I've recovered fast enough. I'm still hurting but I believe I can make it... day by day. No rush. Just accepting every hurt that comes my way. Dealing with it one at a time. With the aid of the One who has the power above us all.

One of the challenges I've won has been the realization my great efforts on reshifting my paradigm for this career choice and flipping my thoughts on how it will bring me a very sad future because of my extreme disliking for this type of work. Now, I can proudly say that I gave IT A CHANCE. And I let myself be consumed by IT. Yeah! I've been very busy with WORK! But I'm telling you it was not an overnight process. Well, at first: I was really TRYING VERY HARD to enjoy work. Understanding my work's importance and my role in sustaining the society and humanity, savoring the fulfillement of every task done, reaping praises for my job well done and having people appreciate my importance as a contributor. Yes, I've gone through the whole process. And the results were quite favorable. I've come to realize this is the perfect job for me. The tasks are mentally stimulating and the challenges are varying enough for me not to get bored. The investigation is exciting enough especially if you are able to deliver the correct solution. Though I tend to get burned out especially when the problem has grown on me and I have become attached to the issues we are trying to resolve. Plus, I also like working with smart and capable persons. It's also financially rewarding(as long as you don't get consumed by the lifestyle - the lifestyle coul get expensive if you try to live it.) and I also get to watch my asian dramas/series online and do some blogging when the job is done. I also have chances to work abroad on a paycheck that could get 10 times as big as my current. WELL, you may think I've become a money-hungry person. But really, I never pay too much attention on that. As long as I can I still feed my vices which is about watching asian dramas and it costs me a thousand a month for broadband and I can still contribute to the house expenses. But right now, I could say, I would need the money, due to reasons I cannot share.

I still think about teaching... Well, teaching was quite an option for me back then, but thinking about it know, I realize I don't like the idea that much. Had I pursued teaching it would have become boring for me by this time. Imagine this, I would repeatedly teach what I already know. Oh I would hate that! And I really teach fast. I like discussing stuff one time and expect my students to learn at that. I know not all students learn fast enough. But with my temper, I'd just scare off my students. And I also liked taking challenging, rather difficult examinations when I was a student and I'm totally bound to adapt that style. And because of that, students will just hate me. Please... I'm too young to be tagged as 'terror', be called names, and be spoken of behind my back. I can only teach and show patience for some time, after that it would really get ugly. It would be a nightmare for both the students and me. Hehe. Yeah, I am singing a different tune now than what I had been in the past year. You can even read it in my previous blogs. Teaching to me now... is just a wonderful dream. Sigh. I wonder where did all those passion go. Well, right now, I have already come to terms with my current profession and have decided to stick to it until it makes my back ache. By that time, I could have mellowed down my temper and I would want a repetetive, lifestyle until I get old and die. Maybe I'd still end up a teacher.