O My! Keanna!
(the new Melanie Marquez)
the wisdom of keanna: text BB KEANNA send to 2331
Keanna: "Di ko alam na pinag-uusapan ako kasi ba't naman ako nila paguusapan? di ko naman bertdey" __________________________________________________ ____
Keanna: "Andami kong pimples wala kasing moisturizer eh" Rico: "Ano ?" Keanna: " Bakukang..andami kong bakukang( pertaining to her pimples)" Rico: " Anong bakukang?" Keanna: "Insekto..(tapos sabay hipo sa mukha niya)" __________________________________________________ _
Keanna" "Buti na lang pinaligo na tayo, akala ko kasi sa Sabado pa puwedeng maligo. Paano kaya sila matutulog non?" ( now, i dont get this. tayo tapos sila?)
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Keanna to Koya: (About not taking bath) Pakiramdam ko po kasi hindi na ako FRESH.
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Keanna: "Rustrum!!" Roxie: "Rustom hindi Rustrum!" Keanna: *deadma mode" pakealam mo? mayaman ako sa letter R! __________________________________________________ _
Some excerpts from Pinoy Big Brother and Keanna Reeves.
You can just love her for being herself.
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Keanna: (habang nagwawalis) "Hindi ako makatulog na madumi ang bahay kasi. tapos mahilig pa kayong magkape. gusto ko tuloy kayong paluin"
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Keanna: Ang hirap kaya mag-dishwasher __________________________________________________ _
Keanna ay nagpa-fashion show sa harap ng mga housemates habang nagpo-pose:
Keanna - "Dapat pala ay mag-pouch ako" Housemates - "Pout hindi pouch( tapos halakhakan)" Keanna - "Eh ano yung pouch past tense" __________________________________________________ _
RULE: Bawal galawin ang furnitures ng wala akong pahintulot Keanna: edi bawal pala gamitin yung rocking chair? kasi gagalaw yun __________________________________________________ _
Keanna: "John Prats! John Prats! Kunin mo nga yung chicken." (hahhahahahh! Full name talaga? ) __________________________________________________ __
Keanna: (from the rule book) si big bra.. brother ang magbibigay sa inyo ng mga kakailanganing gamit...(thinks)... e bat di natin makita ung kamay ni
big bradir eh sya pla magbibigay( sbay twa sila..) __________________________________________________ ___
ZANJOE: Yung kapatid ko ZANDRO... KEANNA: Lahat kayo start sa 'S'?? __________________________________________________ ___
Keanna: "Ay naku wala na pag-asa tayo mag-modern times. Ito pa din ang toothbrush...Talagang back to BISIKS tayo __________________________________________________ __
Keanna - "Streppers ako"
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Yes, I do.
(this article is prematurely written, the ending was not very good because I have to disconnect from the net. someones gotta use the phone.)
Yesterday, I went to kuya Ivan’s wedding. His bride is Ate Mabelle. They finally got married after so many years. They’ve been together since college. Grabe ano? As their invitation says, nine years of friendship and seven years of love. Ate Mabelle sure is very lucky to have Ivan. Kuya Ivan is the best kuya that I never had. Kuya Ivan is just the greatest person I’ve met, and I’m happy that he found Ate Mabelle, the person who’ll make him happy. I hope God blesses them more now that they’re married. I hope they’ll have lots of kids. Kids who in turn will inspire other people as how Kuya Ivan and Ate Mabelle inspired other people as individuals.
The wedding was held at Caleruega, in Calatagan, Batangas. The perfect place for matrimony. Chapel of Transfiguration of Jesus to be exact. In the homily, the priest said (I forgot his name) that a ‘wedding’ is so much like the Transfiguration of Jesus. These events are the heights of of a couple’s life and Jesus’ life. If you were in this stage, you would want to stay there and forever savor the euphoria, the feeling of being on top of the world. You would want to stay there and build your tents. But you know you have to go back down the mountain, live in the plains so that you can fulfill the very reason you were here at the top. Jesus’s life as a the Savior, would not have been fulfilled if he stayed in the mountains with the apparition of Elijah and ?. Just as how Ivan and ate Belle would fulfill their lives as a married Christian couple, to go down the city and face married life’s challenges and live as how God would want them. Now, their dream has come true. I hope the wedding is just the start of the many heights of their lives.
While at the chapel I can’t help but be very envious of Ate Belle and Kuya Ivan. By the time they were 18 they’ve already found each other, and now that they’re 25 they are starting their lives together. And they have their whole life ahead of them. I’m 22 right now, and I’ve never been in a real relationship. Yeah. When am I supposed to meet my destiny? Or if I had met him, who is he? I’d feel bad that we have wasted so much time. We could be very happy now, if he’s been here beside me.
I admit I’ve been liking a certain person for almost four years now and in all those four years, we’ve been really great friends. But I really don’t know if its love. I consider him my best friend. Well, I don’t really want to find out what he thinks of me. One thing’s for sure, if he wants us to be more than friends, he would have done something about it a long time ago. But don’t get me wrong, as a friend he’s done so much for me too. But he’s just not into the relationship thing yet. I’m really hoping that he finds the woman that will make him happy. Soon. Even if it’s not me. Whoever she is, I’ll be thankful of her, even if it’s breaking my heart. That way, I can give up on my waiting and start a new life as his forever friend, not as a friend who waits for him to realize his feelings for me. Which by the way, I don’t know when will happen or if it will happen at all.
Love is patient… And my four years of waiting has been a testimony to that. I don’t know until when I will wait. But as long as I have hope, I’ll wait. But really if he decides to be with another woman, I’ll be the happiest friend he’ll ever have. I’ll always be a friend. If it won’t be him, better not have anybody. But I can’t really say that. Whatever God wants. Actually, life is always the happiest when God is present in our lives. I just hope I’ll find or I’ll learn how to get that happiness soon.
(this article is prematurely written, the ending was not very good because I have to disconnect from the net. someones gotta use the phone.)
Yesterday, I went to kuya Ivan’s wedding. His bride is Ate Mabelle. They finally got married after so many years. They’ve been together since college. Grabe ano? As their invitation says, nine years of friendship and seven years of love. Ate Mabelle sure is very lucky to have Ivan. Kuya Ivan is the best kuya that I never had. Kuya Ivan is just the greatest person I’ve met, and I’m happy that he found Ate Mabelle, the person who’ll make him happy. I hope God blesses them more now that they’re married. I hope they’ll have lots of kids. Kids who in turn will inspire other people as how Kuya Ivan and Ate Mabelle inspired other people as individuals.
The wedding was held at Caleruega, in Calatagan, Batangas. The perfect place for matrimony. Chapel of Transfiguration of Jesus to be exact. In the homily, the priest said (I forgot his name) that a ‘wedding’ is so much like the Transfiguration of Jesus. These events are the heights of of a couple’s life and Jesus’ life. If you were in this stage, you would want to stay there and forever savor the euphoria, the feeling of being on top of the world. You would want to stay there and build your tents. But you know you have to go back down the mountain, live in the plains so that you can fulfill the very reason you were here at the top. Jesus’s life as a the Savior, would not have been fulfilled if he stayed in the mountains with the apparition of Elijah and ?. Just as how Ivan and ate Belle would fulfill their lives as a married Christian couple, to go down the city and face married life’s challenges and live as how God would want them. Now, their dream has come true. I hope the wedding is just the start of the many heights of their lives.
While at the chapel I can’t help but be very envious of Ate Belle and Kuya Ivan. By the time they were 18 they’ve already found each other, and now that they’re 25 they are starting their lives together. And they have their whole life ahead of them. I’m 22 right now, and I’ve never been in a real relationship. Yeah. When am I supposed to meet my destiny? Or if I had met him, who is he? I’d feel bad that we have wasted so much time. We could be very happy now, if he’s been here beside me.
I admit I’ve been liking a certain person for almost four years now and in all those four years, we’ve been really great friends. But I really don’t know if its love. I consider him my best friend. Well, I don’t really want to find out what he thinks of me. One thing’s for sure, if he wants us to be more than friends, he would have done something about it a long time ago. But don’t get me wrong, as a friend he’s done so much for me too. But he’s just not into the relationship thing yet. I’m really hoping that he finds the woman that will make him happy. Soon. Even if it’s not me. Whoever she is, I’ll be thankful of her, even if it’s breaking my heart. That way, I can give up on my waiting and start a new life as his forever friend, not as a friend who waits for him to realize his feelings for me. Which by the way, I don’t know when will happen or if it will happen at all.
Love is patient… And my four years of waiting has been a testimony to that. I don’t know until when I will wait. But as long as I have hope, I’ll wait. But really if he decides to be with another woman, I’ll be the happiest friend he’ll ever have. I’ll always be a friend. If it won’t be him, better not have anybody. But I can’t really say that. Whatever God wants. Actually, life is always the happiest when God is present in our lives. I just hope I’ll find or I’ll learn how to get that happiness soon.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
BAD BA AKO?
haay.. after seven months.. ngayon lang ulit ako napissed off ulit sa isang tao.. at heavy hindi kinaya ng powers ko ang kaepalan nya.. sobra.. uber gago talaga yung batang to.. i can't beliv tumatanggap sila ng ganito sa kompanyang to... punyemas..
sa ngalan ng corporate ethics at courtesy... kailangan kong gawin to...
15:59 asshole ako : ey aileen..
15:59 haylin: yep
15:59 asshole ako : sencia na
15:59 asshole ako : kung masyadong makulet
15:59 asshole ako : ako..
15:59 haylin: ha?
15:59 asshole ako : sorry ^_^
15:59 asshole ako : ehehehehehehehehe
16:00 haylin: ngek...
16:00 asshole ako : yaan mo di na ako masyado mangungulet sau.
16:00 asshole ako : ehehehheeheheh...
16:00 haylin: ang drama naman..
16:00 asshole ako : bka kc galit ka =.. ^_^
16:00 asshole ako : eheheheheheheheh
16:01 haylin: ok lang yung kulit mo overboard lang minsan...
16:01 haylin: masama lang din pakiramdam ko these past few days...
16:01 haylin: :)
16:01 haylin: don't worry
kung ako masusuod ito sasabihin ko:
15:59 asshole ako : ey aileen..
15:59 haylin: o ano kailangan mo? sisirain mo na naman araw ko
15:59 asshole ako : sencia na
15:59 asshole ako : kung masyadong makulet
15:59 asshole ako : ako..
15:59 haylin: punyeta.. anong pase-pasensya.. buti alam mo na epal ka... mashado ka kasing epal
15:59 asshole ako : sorry ^_^
15:59 asshole ako : ehehehehehehehehe
16:00 haylin: nakow totoo ba yan.. ikaw magsosorry, letche wag mo nga ako dramahan.
16:00 asshole ako : yaan mo di na ako masyado mangungulet sau.
16:00 asshole ako : ehehehheeheheh...
16:00 haylin: dapat sayo ipinatatapon sa outer space. o kaya sa isang isla para mabaliw ka na lang at magpakamatay dahil wala kang makausap. tangna.. bat ba puno ng kupal ang mundo... sa kamalamalasan ko naman, nakilala kita..
16:00 asshole ako : bka kc galit ka =.. ^_^
16:00 asshole ako : eheheheheheheheh
16:01 haylin:aba hindi ako galit... hindi ako magaaksaya ng ganong emosyon para sa yo.. naiirita ako ng todo sau. gigil na gigil ako.. parang gusto kong tahiin yang bibig mo ilagay ka sa sako at ikulong sa bin ko.. hanggang hindi ka maakahinga..
16:01 haylin: letswe.. hinahigblood ako sayo eh... magkakasakit ako sa mga asta mo eh. pwede ba itigil tigil mo na yang kaepalan mo... pag ako lang nagtrip, tignan natin kung san ka pupulutin.. kaya sa susunod .. kikilalanin mo aasarin mo ha.. excuse me lang.. hindi tayo magkalevel.. at hindi tayo close.. kaya please lang layu-layuan mo na ako.. ayokong mahawa sa pagka-skwater mo..
16:01 haylin: baka mahawa pa ko ng dumi mo.. kaya please lang.. ayokong makikita ang pagmumukha mo sa office ko.. ok.. letswe
16:01 haylin: pag ako natuwa... mawawalan ka ng trabaho dito.... just try me.. i know ppl from high places and hindi mo gugustuhing masira ang buhay mo.. and yes.. that is a threat! kaya matakot ka.. dahil kaya kong gawin yun.. kaya patahimikin mo ang buhay opisina ko.. wag kang mag-eepal pag nanjan ako.. ok..
haay.. pusha.. hayyy...
haay.. after seven months.. ngayon lang ulit ako napissed off ulit sa isang tao.. at heavy hindi kinaya ng powers ko ang kaepalan nya.. sobra.. uber gago talaga yung batang to.. i can't beliv tumatanggap sila ng ganito sa kompanyang to... punyemas..
sa ngalan ng corporate ethics at courtesy... kailangan kong gawin to...
15:59 asshole ako : ey aileen..
15:59 haylin: yep
15:59 asshole ako : sencia na
15:59 asshole ako : kung masyadong makulet
15:59 asshole ako : ako..
15:59 haylin: ha?
15:59 asshole ako : sorry ^_^
15:59 asshole ako : ehehehehehehehehe
16:00 haylin: ngek...
16:00 asshole ako : yaan mo di na ako masyado mangungulet sau.
16:00 asshole ako : ehehehheeheheh...
16:00 haylin: ang drama naman..
16:00 asshole ako : bka kc galit ka =.. ^_^
16:00 asshole ako : eheheheheheheheh
16:01 haylin: ok lang yung kulit mo overboard lang minsan...
16:01 haylin: masama lang din pakiramdam ko these past few days...
16:01 haylin: :)
16:01 haylin: don't worry
kung ako masusuod ito sasabihin ko:
15:59 asshole ako : ey aileen..
15:59 haylin: o ano kailangan mo? sisirain mo na naman araw ko
15:59 asshole ako : sencia na
15:59 asshole ako : kung masyadong makulet
15:59 asshole ako : ako..
15:59 haylin: punyeta.. anong pase-pasensya.. buti alam mo na epal ka... mashado ka kasing epal
15:59 asshole ako : sorry ^_^
15:59 asshole ako : ehehehehehehehehe
16:00 haylin: nakow totoo ba yan.. ikaw magsosorry, letche wag mo nga ako dramahan.
16:00 asshole ako : yaan mo di na ako masyado mangungulet sau.
16:00 asshole ako : ehehehheeheheh...
16:00 haylin: dapat sayo ipinatatapon sa outer space. o kaya sa isang isla para mabaliw ka na lang at magpakamatay dahil wala kang makausap. tangna.. bat ba puno ng kupal ang mundo... sa kamalamalasan ko naman, nakilala kita..
16:00 asshole ako : bka kc galit ka =.. ^_^
16:00 asshole ako : eheheheheheheheh
16:01 haylin:aba hindi ako galit... hindi ako magaaksaya ng ganong emosyon para sa yo.. naiirita ako ng todo sau. gigil na gigil ako.. parang gusto kong tahiin yang bibig mo ilagay ka sa sako at ikulong sa bin ko.. hanggang hindi ka maakahinga..
16:01 haylin: letswe.. hinahigblood ako sayo eh... magkakasakit ako sa mga asta mo eh. pwede ba itigil tigil mo na yang kaepalan mo... pag ako lang nagtrip, tignan natin kung san ka pupulutin.. kaya sa susunod .. kikilalanin mo aasarin mo ha.. excuse me lang.. hindi tayo magkalevel.. at hindi tayo close.. kaya please lang layu-layuan mo na ako.. ayokong mahawa sa pagka-skwater mo..
16:01 haylin: baka mahawa pa ko ng dumi mo.. kaya please lang.. ayokong makikita ang pagmumukha mo sa office ko.. ok.. letswe
16:01 haylin: pag ako natuwa... mawawalan ka ng trabaho dito.... just try me.. i know ppl from high places and hindi mo gugustuhing masira ang buhay mo.. and yes.. that is a threat! kaya matakot ka.. dahil kaya kong gawin yun.. kaya patahimikin mo ang buhay opisina ko.. wag kang mag-eepal pag nanjan ako.. ok..
haay.. pusha.. hayyy...
Monday, January 30, 2006
SARI-SARING KASARIAN
Paru-parung bukid, na lilipad-lipad
Sa tabi ng dagat, papaga-pagaspas...
Bilang tribute sa mga babaeng nainalab sa mga paruparong bukid... narito at ipopost ko ang isang artikulo na ginawa ng isang taong ayaw magpakilala... nahihiya kasi sya na nainlab sya sa isang paru-parong lungsod...
Isang Istorya ng Pag-Ibig
Ni Mayana Nangis
Thomasian Engineer Journal
March 2003 issue
Saan mang anggulo tingnan, wala na talagang kapag-a-pag-asa ang sitwasyong ito. Mahulog ba naman ang loob mo para sa isang hindi siguradong nilalang, mawiwindang ka sa kaiisip kung paano. Ayan tuloy, parang gusto ko na ring mabakla. Kasi naman, isipin mo, nakikipag holding hands ka sa taong mas babae pa sa ’yo. Naka-backpack ka, samantalang siya, naka-shoulder bag. Kung hahagkan ka niya, baka amuyin niya pa ang buhok mo tapos… tanungin ba naman kung nagconditioner ka ba today! Isipin mo talaga. Ang hirap. Tapos, magseselos ka sa lalaki rin. Haay... ano nga ba ang kahihinatnan ng damdamin kong ito. Wala. Wala akong ibang matatamo kundi sakit ng loob. Sana puso lang ang pwede nitong kurutin pero pati utak mo. Ayan, kumikibot kibot sa kaiisip at kakahanap ng rason. Bakit kailangan ganoon ang kasarian niya nang iluwal siya sa mundo? Bakit kailangan mong hayaan ang sarili mo na mahulog sa isang bakla? Sana... sinaktan ka na lang niya gaya ng paano ka sasaktan ng isang tunay na lalaki. Pero hindi…
Iba talaga ang mundo kung iibig ka sa isang bakla. Lalo na yung mga regalong hindi pa nabubuksan, sa madaling baklang salita... paminta. Baka nga nandidiri pa sa iyo yun habang hinahawakan mo siya. Baka nga na-pe-pressure lang yun ng magulang na magka-girlfriend siya, kaya ka niligawan. We'll, maswerte ka pa nga kung liligawan ka niya. Pero para sa'yo alam mo na minahal mo siya dahil naniniwala kang maaari pa siyang magbago at maging tunay na lalaki. Minahal mo siya dahil tinrato ka niya na talagang parang babae. Well. Walang duda, ikaw ang babae ng kanyang mga panaginip. Kasi ikaw ang babaeng pinapangarap niyang maging sarili niya!
Sa totoo lang madali lang naman tanggapin nag katotohan. Kung ako lang, kaya kong tanggapin na siya ang kakargahin ko tuwing may lalabas na daga, kahit gusto ko ring matili sa takot. O maging sumbungan pag nabastos siya (sagwa no?) Okey lang, madali naman talagang pakisamahan ang mga bakla. Masaya pa nga pag may bakla e. Kaso hindi ganon ang ikot ng mundo. Mahirap makipag-kompetensiya sa tawag ng laman. Kung gagahasain mo siya baka kamuhian ka lang niya. Baka masuka pa siya. Kung tumitingin ka sa ibang lalaki, asahan mo tumitingin din siya sa ibang lalaki. Nakakainis talaga 'tong pakiramdam na 'to.
Kaya ako, galit ako sa bakla... Kasi unang-una inaagaw nila ang mga lalaki sa mga babae. Pangalawa, inaagawan at sinisira din nila ang mga pangarap ng mga babaeng sila naman ang pinapangarap.
Kaya kung ako sa inyong mga lalaki, kung bakla kayo... sabihin niyo na kaagad para naman hindi nahihirapan ang mga babae kung hahayaan ba nila ang mga sarili nila na mahulog sa inyo. Sa mga paminta, Please lang magpakatotoo na kayo. Umamin na kayo. Para magka-alaman na. Para hindi na kami mahirapang mga babae. Ayaw nyo? Square na lang o?
Paru-parung bukid, na lilipad-lipad
Sa tabi ng dagat, papaga-pagaspas...
Bilang tribute sa mga babaeng nainalab sa mga paruparong bukid... narito at ipopost ko ang isang artikulo na ginawa ng isang taong ayaw magpakilala... nahihiya kasi sya na nainlab sya sa isang paru-parong lungsod...
Isang Istorya ng Pag-Ibig
Ni Mayana Nangis
Thomasian Engineer Journal
March 2003 issue
Saan mang anggulo tingnan, wala na talagang kapag-a-pag-asa ang sitwasyong ito. Mahulog ba naman ang loob mo para sa isang hindi siguradong nilalang, mawiwindang ka sa kaiisip kung paano. Ayan tuloy, parang gusto ko na ring mabakla. Kasi naman, isipin mo, nakikipag holding hands ka sa taong mas babae pa sa ’yo. Naka-backpack ka, samantalang siya, naka-shoulder bag. Kung hahagkan ka niya, baka amuyin niya pa ang buhok mo tapos… tanungin ba naman kung nagconditioner ka ba today! Isipin mo talaga. Ang hirap. Tapos, magseselos ka sa lalaki rin. Haay... ano nga ba ang kahihinatnan ng damdamin kong ito. Wala. Wala akong ibang matatamo kundi sakit ng loob. Sana puso lang ang pwede nitong kurutin pero pati utak mo. Ayan, kumikibot kibot sa kaiisip at kakahanap ng rason. Bakit kailangan ganoon ang kasarian niya nang iluwal siya sa mundo? Bakit kailangan mong hayaan ang sarili mo na mahulog sa isang bakla? Sana... sinaktan ka na lang niya gaya ng paano ka sasaktan ng isang tunay na lalaki. Pero hindi…
Iba talaga ang mundo kung iibig ka sa isang bakla. Lalo na yung mga regalong hindi pa nabubuksan, sa madaling baklang salita... paminta. Baka nga nandidiri pa sa iyo yun habang hinahawakan mo siya. Baka nga na-pe-pressure lang yun ng magulang na magka-girlfriend siya, kaya ka niligawan. We'll, maswerte ka pa nga kung liligawan ka niya. Pero para sa'yo alam mo na minahal mo siya dahil naniniwala kang maaari pa siyang magbago at maging tunay na lalaki. Minahal mo siya dahil tinrato ka niya na talagang parang babae. Well. Walang duda, ikaw ang babae ng kanyang mga panaginip. Kasi ikaw ang babaeng pinapangarap niyang maging sarili niya!
Sa totoo lang madali lang naman tanggapin nag katotohan. Kung ako lang, kaya kong tanggapin na siya ang kakargahin ko tuwing may lalabas na daga, kahit gusto ko ring matili sa takot. O maging sumbungan pag nabastos siya (sagwa no?) Okey lang, madali naman talagang pakisamahan ang mga bakla. Masaya pa nga pag may bakla e. Kaso hindi ganon ang ikot ng mundo. Mahirap makipag-kompetensiya sa tawag ng laman. Kung gagahasain mo siya baka kamuhian ka lang niya. Baka masuka pa siya. Kung tumitingin ka sa ibang lalaki, asahan mo tumitingin din siya sa ibang lalaki. Nakakainis talaga 'tong pakiramdam na 'to.
Kaya ako, galit ako sa bakla... Kasi unang-una inaagaw nila ang mga lalaki sa mga babae. Pangalawa, inaagawan at sinisira din nila ang mga pangarap ng mga babaeng sila naman ang pinapangarap.
Kaya kung ako sa inyong mga lalaki, kung bakla kayo... sabihin niyo na kaagad para naman hindi nahihirapan ang mga babae kung hahayaan ba nila ang mga sarili nila na mahulog sa inyo. Sa mga paminta, Please lang magpakatotoo na kayo. Umamin na kayo. Para magka-alaman na. Para hindi na kami mahirapang mga babae. Ayaw nyo? Square na lang o?
Friday, January 20, 2006
Ako at ang Backstreet Boys
(pasensya na kung walang congruence ang mga paragaraphs, it is written as how it runs in my thoughts... marami mali sa grammar...hay ang gulo gulo nya pero okay lang... bahala kayo magbasa) :)
12:04 a.m. Just came home.. fresh from guess what?! hehe... the Backstreet Boys Concert...
hehe.. yeah.. u read it ryt... haha.. i know.. i iknow.. i can hear your say
eeww... gross.. yuck...
o sige laitin nyo ko. wala akong paki. Sa aking uber lakas maglait self...
marami ang hindi magiisip na ako ay lagalag-panty fan ng BSB... na kung
paandarin ko ay ang aking pag-iisip ay isang uri ng kasulasulasok na obsesyon... lalo
na ng aking si Nick Carter... ang orihinal na obheto ng aking mga panaginip... Grabe kaya..
wala pa akong mens... gusto ko nang magpabuntis dito sa lalaking to... hahah!
Well, sorry tao lang... Ako ay tao lamang na may mga iniidolo... humahanga sa iang nilalang.. gaano man kababaw at kabasura ang tingin ng iba dito. All i can say that the Backstreet Boys has influenced me a lot.. big part of myself.. i owe it to them. sila ang foundation ng aking buong pagkatao.. revering them for the past 13 years. that's a lot! I'd be an entirely different person if i had not known them. If they did not existed. I won't be the way i am. Not as happy, not as positive, not as succesful, though i'm not very succesful right now, in other people's standards.
If i were, i would have flown to the states and made a home in Orlando, Florida.
Haay.... My Nick... after 2 serious relationships, Paris Hilton and Mandy Williford, at mga
flings.. like Kaya Jones, Bai Ling and sino pa ba... marami pa... hay naku i still find the man uber diserable.. kahit mataba na sya ngayon.. (grabe ang laki ng pwet nya habang sumasayaw sya ng everybody! so sexy!) i'm just too sad he fell for the likes. stupid, useless or friendly user women, selfish. Lalo na si Paris. I think she is the most useless animal God created. So filthy rich, yet uber useless. Anlaki ng potential na makatulong sa kapwa, pero hindi ginagamit. Haay, ano bang pagpapalaki ang ginawa jan sa babaeng iyan. hmmmf, tswe! Nick can do better than that. Hay, kelan ka ba matuto?! Mahilig ka talaga sa basura!
Back to my Nicky... mas una ko syang pinanatasya kaysa kay jerry yan ng F4 (ewww.. another yucky info) hehe... i missed fantizising about him.. i like him a lot... he's so makulit... kaninan kaya sobrang papansin... ang hilig magpa-harrass sa mga fans.. baba ng baba ng stage... nagpapapahipo sa mga rich na Pinays. Petchay talaga.. ang swerte ng mga nasa Patron section.. yan ang nagagawa ng ng tumataginting na 5 thousand pesoses...
haha.. i wasn't able to eat dinner and i'm starving ryt now. i forgot that i was supposed to, hehe.. mejo nagahol kasi ako eh, kasi uber last minute decision... i commuted all the way from makati.. from work actually... from legaspi, i rode an fx that took 20 minutes just papuntang landmark.. i
went to sm so i can buy tkets from ticketNet.. hayy... My God my temper was risin' so fast becoz the friggin pila was uber short but it still took me 1 hr to buy the damn ticket. (ayan nagaya na ko kay jazzie, anak ng puto) paksyet talaga. 20 minutes per customer.. letche... sabe nung nasa
likod ko... mas mabilis pa umandar pila sa immigration kaysa dito... she's friggin pissed too.. but i'm just proud that i was able to control my temper... then i went to buy my MRT tickets... good thing the fast lane lived up to its name, its fast.. pero fuck! the pilation to enter the train
premises was friggin nakakirita again.. some people even made singit to the pila but i was able to control it again .. all for the love of my backstreet boys. Good thhing again, the train was not uber siksik.. bcause my big boobies were able to breath. hehe. everything went fine when i got off the train. there were no upuans already but its okay.. we sat at the malamig na batong stairs. but as soon as the concert started, we hit the rails and screamed, sang,danced jumped,
partied like drug addicts. para kaming naka-E, E-modium. hehe. I super enjoyed it, all the 20 songs.. whew... they were great. so i forgot to eat. it was the first time that i partied like that eversince i graduated. felt lyk years! oops.. bamboo concert was exciting but nothing compares to the backstreeet. all in the name of keepin the backstreet pride alive.
haay... ansarap talagang mabuhay... sana araw araw na lang nandito backstreet
boys.. sana pwede ko silang iuwi. hehe. :))
i must be totally mad. epekto ng BSB. after the show, i actually used the longer route home just to spend the after-the-show highness to newly found friends. i actually watched it alone, but met a few BSB crazed gurlettes, like myself.. exchanged phone numbers and was promised to get pics and videos that they got... hehe. heaven. Hi to Nelly, Myca... it was nice having fun with you.. i wont forget the jumping and screaming on top of my lungs stuff that we did .. haven't did that with my close friends.. they actually see me as dirt whenever i chatter about the BSB... and they call themselves my friends.. haay naku talaga... i'm so glad i met you people.. .
here i am writing this blog. i'm afraid the feeling would subside, if i did not write it right now. owowow... it just happened.. deja vu.. i actually dreamt of doing this blog, at the same time, listening to a rare backstreet mp3. hehe, a rip from an american radio station. :) conclusion: it was written in the stars.. that i'm going to see them his night... hehe... it was meant to be... i thought i would not be able to watch the concert. just yesterday, i am uber discouraged because not a single person wants to come with me to the concert. even the people who i expected to come can't be there. I thought they were more backstreet crazed than i am. well, i can't blame them, its super last minute kinda invites.
well.. di ko naman sinadja, na mahirapana silang iturn down ang invite ko. we've been quite busy the past weeks, i actualy forgot the date was nearing... pero kahit wala sila... larga paren!
the burning to see them was too strong to ignore. its like hunger after a year's drought. i can't bear not to feed it. i had to light the fire. its now or never! i went there lonesome, alone, solo, in solace, nag-iisa.. but i had the time of my life.super sulit savers club. that's the first show i saw that i went all by myself. ano ngtulakj sakin: "if not now, when?" ang drama ko. what are the chances na they'd come here again. pag matanda na sila atb laos na... or what are the chances than i can go to the states and live there and support their recording career. oh! that's an ultimate dream.
i felt nostalgic.. i saw my old self again. i saw the basic dreams that i used to make "usal to my panginoon" every night, before my beauty rest. i refelt the sensation when i was still young, super baliw and innocent. With big hopes and dreams. I hoped to regain that drive. Many people/things have let me down, eversince. College has made me suffer. And i thought i couldn't go back to my old self. But tonight, i was 12 again, innocent,
and with big dreams, and most of all very happy that i have those dreams, even
if it were so impossible. its like going back to the basics. nung wla pang cellphone, lalake, computer at iba pang bagay na akala mo hindi ka mabubuhay kung wala, pero alam natin na pwedeng umandar ang mundo kahit wala yung mga yun. that for me was happiness. like the happiness BSB has caused me.
Song of the Moment
Ang lalim noh. So talagang hinahanap hanap ko ang tagos sa laman at balunbalunan na epekto sakin ng mga lalaking ito: Kaya song of the moment ko is "I still", straight from their new record "NEVER GONE"
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when
I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on,
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you Like
I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh Wish I could find you
Just like you found me Ohhhhh
(and I could never let you go)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you
O ayan na! Nuff said. Signing out!
(pasensya na kung walang congruence ang mga paragaraphs, it is written as how it runs in my thoughts... marami mali sa grammar...hay ang gulo gulo nya pero okay lang... bahala kayo magbasa) :)
12:04 a.m. Just came home.. fresh from guess what?! hehe... the Backstreet Boys Concert...
hehe.. yeah.. u read it ryt... haha.. i know.. i iknow.. i can hear your say
eeww... gross.. yuck...
o sige laitin nyo ko. wala akong paki. Sa aking uber lakas maglait self...
marami ang hindi magiisip na ako ay lagalag-panty fan ng BSB... na kung
paandarin ko ay ang aking pag-iisip ay isang uri ng kasulasulasok na obsesyon... lalo
na ng aking si Nick Carter... ang orihinal na obheto ng aking mga panaginip... Grabe kaya..
wala pa akong mens... gusto ko nang magpabuntis dito sa lalaking to... hahah!
Well, sorry tao lang... Ako ay tao lamang na may mga iniidolo... humahanga sa iang nilalang.. gaano man kababaw at kabasura ang tingin ng iba dito. All i can say that the Backstreet Boys has influenced me a lot.. big part of myself.. i owe it to them. sila ang foundation ng aking buong pagkatao.. revering them for the past 13 years. that's a lot! I'd be an entirely different person if i had not known them. If they did not existed. I won't be the way i am. Not as happy, not as positive, not as succesful, though i'm not very succesful right now, in other people's standards.
If i were, i would have flown to the states and made a home in Orlando, Florida.
Haay.... My Nick... after 2 serious relationships, Paris Hilton and Mandy Williford, at mga
flings.. like Kaya Jones, Bai Ling and sino pa ba... marami pa... hay naku i still find the man uber diserable.. kahit mataba na sya ngayon.. (grabe ang laki ng pwet nya habang sumasayaw sya ng everybody! so sexy!) i'm just too sad he fell for the likes. stupid, useless or friendly user women, selfish. Lalo na si Paris. I think she is the most useless animal God created. So filthy rich, yet uber useless. Anlaki ng potential na makatulong sa kapwa, pero hindi ginagamit. Haay, ano bang pagpapalaki ang ginawa jan sa babaeng iyan. hmmmf, tswe! Nick can do better than that. Hay, kelan ka ba matuto?! Mahilig ka talaga sa basura!
Back to my Nicky... mas una ko syang pinanatasya kaysa kay jerry yan ng F4 (ewww.. another yucky info) hehe... i missed fantizising about him.. i like him a lot... he's so makulit... kaninan kaya sobrang papansin... ang hilig magpa-harrass sa mga fans.. baba ng baba ng stage... nagpapapahipo sa mga rich na Pinays. Petchay talaga.. ang swerte ng mga nasa Patron section.. yan ang nagagawa ng ng tumataginting na 5 thousand pesoses...
haha.. i wasn't able to eat dinner and i'm starving ryt now. i forgot that i was supposed to, hehe.. mejo nagahol kasi ako eh, kasi uber last minute decision... i commuted all the way from makati.. from work actually... from legaspi, i rode an fx that took 20 minutes just papuntang landmark.. i
went to sm so i can buy tkets from ticketNet.. hayy... My God my temper was risin' so fast becoz the friggin pila was uber short but it still took me 1 hr to buy the damn ticket. (ayan nagaya na ko kay jazzie, anak ng puto) paksyet talaga. 20 minutes per customer.. letche... sabe nung nasa
likod ko... mas mabilis pa umandar pila sa immigration kaysa dito... she's friggin pissed too.. but i'm just proud that i was able to control my temper... then i went to buy my MRT tickets... good thing the fast lane lived up to its name, its fast.. pero fuck! the pilation to enter the train
premises was friggin nakakirita again.. some people even made singit to the pila but i was able to control it again .. all for the love of my backstreet boys. Good thhing again, the train was not uber siksik.. bcause my big boobies were able to breath. hehe. everything went fine when i got off the train. there were no upuans already but its okay.. we sat at the malamig na batong stairs. but as soon as the concert started, we hit the rails and screamed, sang,danced jumped,
partied like drug addicts. para kaming naka-E, E-modium. hehe. I super enjoyed it, all the 20 songs.. whew... they were great. so i forgot to eat. it was the first time that i partied like that eversince i graduated. felt lyk years! oops.. bamboo concert was exciting but nothing compares to the backstreeet. all in the name of keepin the backstreet pride alive.
haay... ansarap talagang mabuhay... sana araw araw na lang nandito backstreet
boys.. sana pwede ko silang iuwi. hehe. :))
i must be totally mad. epekto ng BSB. after the show, i actually used the longer route home just to spend the after-the-show highness to newly found friends. i actually watched it alone, but met a few BSB crazed gurlettes, like myself.. exchanged phone numbers and was promised to get pics and videos that they got... hehe. heaven. Hi to Nelly, Myca... it was nice having fun with you.. i wont forget the jumping and screaming on top of my lungs stuff that we did .. haven't did that with my close friends.. they actually see me as dirt whenever i chatter about the BSB... and they call themselves my friends.. haay naku talaga... i'm so glad i met you people.. .
here i am writing this blog. i'm afraid the feeling would subside, if i did not write it right now. owowow... it just happened.. deja vu.. i actually dreamt of doing this blog, at the same time, listening to a rare backstreet mp3. hehe, a rip from an american radio station. :) conclusion: it was written in the stars.. that i'm going to see them his night... hehe... it was meant to be... i thought i would not be able to watch the concert. just yesterday, i am uber discouraged because not a single person wants to come with me to the concert. even the people who i expected to come can't be there. I thought they were more backstreet crazed than i am. well, i can't blame them, its super last minute kinda invites.
well.. di ko naman sinadja, na mahirapana silang iturn down ang invite ko. we've been quite busy the past weeks, i actualy forgot the date was nearing... pero kahit wala sila... larga paren!
the burning to see them was too strong to ignore. its like hunger after a year's drought. i can't bear not to feed it. i had to light the fire. its now or never! i went there lonesome, alone, solo, in solace, nag-iisa.. but i had the time of my life.super sulit savers club. that's the first show i saw that i went all by myself. ano ngtulakj sakin: "if not now, when?" ang drama ko. what are the chances na they'd come here again. pag matanda na sila atb laos na... or what are the chances than i can go to the states and live there and support their recording career. oh! that's an ultimate dream.
i felt nostalgic.. i saw my old self again. i saw the basic dreams that i used to make "usal to my panginoon" every night, before my beauty rest. i refelt the sensation when i was still young, super baliw and innocent. With big hopes and dreams. I hoped to regain that drive. Many people/things have let me down, eversince. College has made me suffer. And i thought i couldn't go back to my old self. But tonight, i was 12 again, innocent,
and with big dreams, and most of all very happy that i have those dreams, even
if it were so impossible. its like going back to the basics. nung wla pang cellphone, lalake, computer at iba pang bagay na akala mo hindi ka mabubuhay kung wala, pero alam natin na pwedeng umandar ang mundo kahit wala yung mga yun. that for me was happiness. like the happiness BSB has caused me.
Song of the Moment
Ang lalim noh. So talagang hinahanap hanap ko ang tagos sa laman at balunbalunan na epekto sakin ng mga lalaking ito: Kaya song of the moment ko is "I still", straight from their new record "NEVER GONE"
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when
I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on,
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you Like
I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh Wish I could find you
Just like you found me Ohhhhh
(and I could never let you go)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you
O ayan na! Nuff said. Signing out!
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
BORING MONDAY
(nung monday ko pa to sinulat... )
Sobrang antok na ko. Ayoko na. Suko na ko today. Nakakainis tong ginagawa ko, kahapon lang gumagana sya ng maayos, ngayon ayaw na naman. Peste. Investigate na naman. hmmp. Hay, Frustrations, frustrations.Kala ko pa naman magtutuloy tuloy na ang lahat ng magagandang ngyayari sa aking trabaho. Pero hindi. Nabalewala lang ang mga documentations ko last time. Grabe talaga.
Last week, nagmeet kami ng kamote kids for kenneth's birthday. Nakakagulat talaga, dahil nakumpleto na kami after how many months. I them missed so much talaga. Sobrang nag-enjoy ako sa night na yun. Hay, Ewan ko ba... parang may kulang... err baka sobra. Nakakainis kasi, Ken also invited his other friends sa gimmick. So, hindi sila makasali sa group. Kenneth had to attend to them. I don't think na-enjoy nya masyado yung day na yun... err.. assuming lang naman.
Ken, happy Birthday ulit. Sana matupad na yung dream mo na maging licensed ECE. Para makapagwork ka na and ma-pursue mo yug dream mo na maging Environmental Engineering Expert. Hehehe. All the best for you.
Sana isend nila Ronald yung pics. hmmp. Wala man lang kaming group pic.
HOLD HANDS
What should you do when a guy who is not your boyfriend/suitor or anbody who has not expressed romantic feelings for you suddenly grabs your hand and puts his fingers in between your fingers and clasps your palm in one tight grip. How should you react? What do you expect to feel? Surprise, i know. You can be totally calm on the outside but your heart will surely throb in the realization of the gesture. Your mind will surely rage with questions. You know the answer could be just out there, but you really dont wanna know. You won't want to look in his eyes because you cant simply bear to know, to see the truth. Either get hurt that his eyes might say its nothing, or get scared that his eyes may say let's end friendship and be more than that, and hurt each other. In this case, all you can do is bulge your eyes out in the complete unpreparedness of what he has to say. What if he suddenly blurts out, "Gotcha" and find out its just one hell of a practical joke.
Sometimes, you can just be happy and contented with the unanswered, with the unconfirmed. You wanna live in the moment. But still, your brain cells are ramaging up and down with those interrogatives. What does it mean? That simple gesture speaks a thousand words. What exactly runs in his mind at that very moment? You could try guessing. You can have your two selves arguing if it means he likes you or simply just want to hold you. It could be that he wants you by his side, so he holds you so that you can't let go. Or it could be just the hormones working overtime? Wanting a girl's scent to linger around. No meaning at all.
Really what does a man think of when he does that? Does it really say something, or it is just a plain gesture. I really don't know. If I don't like the guy, do I just stand there stiffly, not reacting and fight the urge to take your hands away and break from his hold and hurt his feelings? Or humiliate him the least? Or If I like the guy, do I just stand there stiffly and fight the urge to hold him back as tight as I want to so that he can't let go. What if its just a gesture? You could've made a fool of yourself if you did that, revealing to him of your true feelings, that you thought was mutual.
I don't know. Why do guys hold girls that they don't really want to keep? Do girls do it too? I've never done it. I hope everything can be expressed by words so that I don't have to deal with mind reading.
(nung monday ko pa to sinulat... )
Sobrang antok na ko. Ayoko na. Suko na ko today. Nakakainis tong ginagawa ko, kahapon lang gumagana sya ng maayos, ngayon ayaw na naman. Peste. Investigate na naman. hmmp. Hay, Frustrations, frustrations.Kala ko pa naman magtutuloy tuloy na ang lahat ng magagandang ngyayari sa aking trabaho. Pero hindi. Nabalewala lang ang mga documentations ko last time. Grabe talaga.
Last week, nagmeet kami ng kamote kids for kenneth's birthday. Nakakagulat talaga, dahil nakumpleto na kami after how many months. I them missed so much talaga. Sobrang nag-enjoy ako sa night na yun. Hay, Ewan ko ba... parang may kulang... err baka sobra. Nakakainis kasi, Ken also invited his other friends sa gimmick. So, hindi sila makasali sa group. Kenneth had to attend to them. I don't think na-enjoy nya masyado yung day na yun... err.. assuming lang naman.
Ken, happy Birthday ulit. Sana matupad na yung dream mo na maging licensed ECE. Para makapagwork ka na and ma-pursue mo yug dream mo na maging Environmental Engineering Expert. Hehehe. All the best for you.
Sana isend nila Ronald yung pics. hmmp. Wala man lang kaming group pic.
HOLD HANDS
What should you do when a guy who is not your boyfriend/suitor or anbody who has not expressed romantic feelings for you suddenly grabs your hand and puts his fingers in between your fingers and clasps your palm in one tight grip. How should you react? What do you expect to feel? Surprise, i know. You can be totally calm on the outside but your heart will surely throb in the realization of the gesture. Your mind will surely rage with questions. You know the answer could be just out there, but you really dont wanna know. You won't want to look in his eyes because you cant simply bear to know, to see the truth. Either get hurt that his eyes might say its nothing, or get scared that his eyes may say let's end friendship and be more than that, and hurt each other. In this case, all you can do is bulge your eyes out in the complete unpreparedness of what he has to say. What if he suddenly blurts out, "Gotcha" and find out its just one hell of a practical joke.
Sometimes, you can just be happy and contented with the unanswered, with the unconfirmed. You wanna live in the moment. But still, your brain cells are ramaging up and down with those interrogatives. What does it mean? That simple gesture speaks a thousand words. What exactly runs in his mind at that very moment? You could try guessing. You can have your two selves arguing if it means he likes you or simply just want to hold you. It could be that he wants you by his side, so he holds you so that you can't let go. Or it could be just the hormones working overtime? Wanting a girl's scent to linger around. No meaning at all.
Really what does a man think of when he does that? Does it really say something, or it is just a plain gesture. I really don't know. If I don't like the guy, do I just stand there stiffly, not reacting and fight the urge to take your hands away and break from his hold and hurt his feelings? Or humiliate him the least? Or If I like the guy, do I just stand there stiffly and fight the urge to hold him back as tight as I want to so that he can't let go. What if its just a gesture? You could've made a fool of yourself if you did that, revealing to him of your true feelings, that you thought was mutual.
I don't know. Why do guys hold girls that they don't really want to keep? Do girls do it too? I've never done it. I hope everything can be expressed by words so that I don't have to deal with mind reading.
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